I haven’t written here a lot lately. One of the reasons is because most of the time when I sit down I can only write something like…
The beautiful Hannah is the greatest thing to happen to me ever. She makes it too easy to love her and loves me more than I ever deserve. And I am constantly amazed that I can love someone as much as I love her.
And most of the time, I figure that is not what people want to hear and delete the paragraphs. But it’s nearly Valentine’s Day and by the time this posts she will have brought Junior into the world. So here goes that post that my head keeps writing.
The beautiful Hannah is the greatest thing to happen to me ever.
We did happen. We traveled in the same circles of friends for at least a couple years without noticing the other. Then one day we did and fell in love faster than I would recommend other people should. We have spent at least some time together every day for the last 2 years which as someone who likes his space, is pretty crazy I crave being with her more than alone. I judged girls a lot before I decided if they were “datable” yet with her deep connections happened before we could put expectations on the other. We happened…not courted or dated.
She makes it too easy to love her and loves me more than I ever deserve.
There are so many examples of the beautiful Hannah being an amazing and kind woman I need to isolate one thing. In the past few months, while pregnant and working too hard at her school, she has made sure to make time for me. She has done more than her share of chores and given me time to sleep or read or relax. While I was sick, she made me soup and let me be lazy. Then when she was sick, she made herself soup and cleaned the house! I don’t get the second part there but she likes to treat me like a prince.
We have only been married for a year and a half yet it seems like we have journeying through life together for at least the last ten.
Sometime we get confused and even surprised when we realize we weren’t together when we went on a vacation three years ago or knew that person or struggled through that time. Because we figured that we just knew each other for so many years. It is like our hearts and lives were prepared for the other or something.
And I am constantly amazed that I can love someone as much as I love her.
For years I fought connecting on a deep level with anyone. The word love was not something I was willing to say to anyone… They might die, they might reject me, they might hurt me—intentionally or unintentionally, so I was quick to keep everyone at arm’s length or farther from me. I was facaded with cinderblocks to most people and yet, I can’t keep a secret for the beautiful Hannah now. She knew my darkest secrets within a couple months of meeting me. She learned my struggles and asked how to help. She heard my pains and offered to build a new life with me without those pains. That is why the beautiful Hannah is greatest thing that ever happened to me and the love of my life.
Thanks for being my baby mama, Cintamu.