Disagreements

 

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A few months ago, I stopped reading and then slowly writing.  I was tired of reading all sides of the same story that was actually the same side from different perspective. So I have started reading things that I don’t agree with. Don’t worry I still can’t read Fox News or TMZ but I did start trying to give another chance to those whom I dismissed previously.

I have grabbed some books off my shelves that have been hard to take and restarted them.

Radical is one.  I never read it because I listened to the author’s preaching first.  I didn’t agree with a lot of what he said.  Specifically hell and how many people were going. I am not sure I agree with a literal hell…but I am not sure I disagree with a hell either, or need to know if it is real for me to love my neighbor as myself.

But I picked it up and hoped to read through it before I made judgments. In the first 6 pages I think I read every Christianese phrase that has made my skin crawl in the last few years.

I agreed with his stories, just the filter it was presented through and the inappropriate emphasis made me put it down…4 times. Then I start skimming in the second chapter and into the third. By the 4th I dropped it again and left it in the car for another week.

Last Saturday I went to get some tires on the car and needless to say it took a while. I grabbed the book and started reading. And started watching the infomercial about a new exercise program. Then read some. Then watched another special presentation on an infrared cooker.  Then read a little before I was skimming 10 pages a minute and glancing at headings.  And well I finished the book before I judged.

But I barely read it.

As I wondered if I was messed up and why I just couldn’t read a book.  Was I really that stuck in my ways that I refused to even listen to a counterpoint.

Then, I realized I wasn’t the target audience.  The book wasn’t radical to me.  I lived his stories and experienced the craziness of going back to the US church and telling them there are more important things than what color the vestments are….like the starving people we passed on the way in.

I’ve been living it for 10 years now. Giving time and money away. Giving up cars (twice), places (4x) and friends and family (12x).  I have been rejected and called crazy to my face and maybe that is what he wanted.  So maybe this book impacted people that chose the career, spouse or money over the call or sacrifice.

But when I say that it is for others and not me, I am writing in the same style that annoyed me in Radical. The style of the “I am better at this life thing than you”, which I guess why the genre is called self-help…I am sorry “Christian Living”.

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American Winter

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A couple weeks ago, the beautiful Hannah and I went to a film festival. It wasn’t as high brow as it sounds.  It was actually very sad and business like.  We saw American Winter, a story about our city and its agencies for the poor and desperate.  I say poor and desperate, when I actually mean those struggling to make ends meet a little worse than most of us.  I know I say we are rich, but sometimes when we look at the balance of our savings, credit card and check accounts, we definitely don’t feel like it.  This film showed people who are substantially richer with love and family than most, but have no money for bills.

American Winter chronicles 5 families in the general area who have lost work, family members or health and ended up “where they never thought they would”.  Asking for help and approaching homelessness.  The life you never dream of as a child, teenager, college student or young professional.  Having to move your family back in with YOUR parents.  Having to sell your needed possessions, or visit the food pantry or petition the electric company to turn on your electricity for the health of your children.  That is NOT the American dream, you’d think.

But sadly as the film details, it is a large part of it.  These five families in Portland probably portray thousands of similar stories in our city, region and the world.  This film exposes the horrible parts of the system.  Being overqualified for a shit job.  Being told that you have to be more in debt to apply for help, then when you are, hearing it is too late.  Hearing that there isn’t any help available because you are one of thousands with the same problem and the agency, church or business just ran out of funds or resources.

I am part of the last problem.  Having to say, “Sorry, that is all we have”.  Many times a month, I grimace after hearing a story of loss or struggle I believe and have to turn people away.  Or more honestly, farther away.

American Winter is a story that each of us can relate to.  If you are one of the lucky ones that has access to HBO, check it out on Monday night, March 18th.  If you are reading this later, or don’t have HBO check out the websites below for more showing and information.  It might come to a city near you!

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Death and Heaven

RichardI am mourning for a man I never knew.  Like my father, and father -in-law, he died too young by our earthly calculations.  I heard him speak a handful of times and read his words a couple more handfuls of times, but never had a real conversation with him more than to shake his hand and thank him for speaking.  The beautiful Hannah and I had imagined plans to have dinner with him one day when that real conversation might happen.

The beautiful Hannah has mentioned more than once that her father will get to have dinner with him before us.  They will meet in heaven.  Which has gotten me thinking about heaven again and I am not sure how I feel about that.  I am not sure if I agree or more honestly, if I want to know what heaven is like.   When I first started getting into church— as in listening, reading and taking to heart – church and biblical ideas the general consensus was that heaven would be one large praise and worship party.  This always scared me.  I enjoy loud, rock worship as much as the next 23 year old in a 33 year old’s body, but… I am not sure if I want to do it eternally.

Before that I went to a singles ministry (for fellowship, ya know) that was non-denominational at a southern Baptist church and led by the conservative Baptist minded leaders of said church.  More than once the mention of streets of gold was made.  At the time the hip hop world I was surrounded by was obsessed with platinum, which made me wonder why God—as the sovereign creator and designer of our faith—used a less than most precious metal to pave his paradise.  Was he not wasteful? Or was gold actually more precious to him?  Or did it matter at all?

As I explained some of my ideas about heaven to friends and my objections a lot of them agreed with me.  Often this is where it ended.  Until in recent years I have chatted with agnostics and atheists what are worried about Christians projections of heaven because it stops them from caring for this world environmentally, socially and charitably.  I like their thoughts that we as Christians should care more about this life that we can define than the next (if you believe in that) which is unknown and a major surprise.

As a follower of the Jesus Way– with Richard, I am committed to helping those around me today more than worrying about what kind of music I will hear or what I will walk on in the next life.  That is why the beautiful Hannah and I have decided to honor the man we never actually communed with by donating to his legacy.  He lived a life worthy of remembering but also left many holes both physical and financial for his foundation and his family.  If you want to join us (we want 8 friends to help with $100), please let me know.  All the needed information is found here.  If you think you can do a full share of the ask, please follow the steps at the link.

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Pursuing Justice

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A few years ago, I went to my church’s office for a meeting about better serving a small group of misfits better.  While waiting I noticed a little flyer for “The Justice Conference” and shoved it in my pocket.   A few months later I was a couple hours from home at said conference absorbing more truth than I imagined would come from Central Oregon.  It was 2 days of learning, questioning and unexpectantly mingling with people from around the country and the world.  On the way back from that trip we chatted about a few of the speakers, what we learned and where to go from here.  I was in a studying, listening, conferencing phase of life so had many names on a list to further research but wanted to know who started it all and why.  The more I read Ken Wytsma’s blog and listened to his sermons, the more I learned to respect him.

This week, I finished reading Pursing Justice, his first book.  Ken is an intellectual, a teacher, a philosopher, the founder of The Justice Conference and a man who packs as much life into a day as is humanly possible.  The book is the product of decades of seeking (pursing) an understanding of justice that wasn’t just intellectual but physical and emotional.  It is multifaceted and inspired a list of keywords, which I will expound on here.  A list is needed so I don’t share my 1200 words of notes.

The book is filled with Epiphanies like realizing the Nazi’s were humans who followed orders and desired to survive; and that “if consumerism can be created, it can be combated. If selfishness can be taught, selflessness can be learned.”

There is deep knowledge used to teach and illustrate like using math in a passage to come to the conclusion “For God so loved the world that . . . you and I are being sent into the world.” Hermeneutics and translations of words such as love, justice and righteousness are covered in depth.  It is so good I had to reread some sections while not on the city bus to fully understand points.

He reminisces of being frustrated with caring for orphans and widows as a college student because they weren’t receptive, until he realized it was changing him.

We are called out occasionally like when there is a comparison between us and the Israelites of the Old Testament, and the religious leaders of the New, who also forgot those who suffered around them.  And when it is mentioned how short term missions is not only hurting many it aims to help, but also is a $2 billion dollar industry that could do substantially more. Brian Fikkert would be proud.

There are stomach churning accounts like the Church of England owning slaves to supply their “furthering of the gospel” efforts or that my (our)home state of Oregon had constitutional laws against freed blacks settling and were one of the last to ratify the 15th amendment allowing African Americans to vote.

There are challenges like thinking we will be the next Wilberforce without realizing he fought for the same cause for nearly 50 years and died three days after it was realized; how we tackle global issues while forgetting local and environmental needs; or giving relief when development is needed; or thinking we are being persecuting because no one listens to us at our home church while workers in Asia face death constantly for rescuing girls from brothels.

The fad mentality of justice amongst many people is also addressed, while the social gospel is explained in detail and compared to social justice, including history and challenges to those misusing words stating the gospel can’t be reduced down like politics has been to just checking a box.

There is a call to not just do justice, but see, know and understand justice issues.  He points out that many new situations need well educated people, not just eager youth groups.  Also addressing how fear and apathy are causing bystanders when they should create workers.

But before you think it is all academic and too hard to read, there are also interludes at the end of each chapter that allow you to breathe.

I don’t think I am an intellectual.  I like reading, researching and studying, but need to take notes to remember things.  This habit leads me to star quotes or items that jump out to me.  This book ended up having 56 stars… a lot for a 300 page book in my method.

I found this quote in the first hour of reading and don’t think anything jumped out to me more.  So in closing, I’ll let you chew on this.

“Justice is always a felt need for the poor, for the oppressed. However, for people who have enough—or too much—it is more difficult to feel the need for justice. If the cry for justice, for shalom, isn’t burning in our guts, it’s easy to put it on the back burner.”

In case you missed the other links in the text…You can order this great book and learn about Ken at kenwytsma.com

 

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Mediocrity

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The other day I read an article on a local company that is “struggling”.  They are struggling not because their product is outdated or another better item took over the market, but because they built such high quality products that they work for 50+ years.  To fix this “struggling”, a new CEO was brought in who corrected a simple cosmetic flaw, took the original product off the market and replaced it with a more expensive, less long lasting type.  They are “revamped”, “rebranded” and “succeeding” again.

It got me thinking and made me wonder if mediocrity will ever be allowed again.  Depending how you look at the world probably not.  Most messages say you can do more, better, work harder… be wealthier.  Isn’t that what it is really about?  More money which equals more stuff and more property which then costs more and is harder to maintain unless you have more money?

This is the first year I have filed taxes jointly.  I have known for years that I make a livable wage, but this year the income that came into our little apartment was astounding!  Before taxes and deductions of course.  And when I look at the numbers I wondered why I live such a boring life.

Not boring in the sense of not doing anything, but in the sense of I could do more.  The numbers say I can live a bigger life, a nicer life, a more productive life.  But I am not, so that means I need larger numbers or fewer deductions.  And I actually think taxes go to some good things, because I have driven the roads in Vietnam, Indonesia and Mississippi; and can write and talk thanks to a free education.  So I don’t want fewer deductions.  So I need bigger incomes.  Which would let me have a better life, right?

Maybe, but probably not

I would most likely stop being mediocre.  Not in the changing the world way, I would probably be worse at that.  I would be less mediocre in where I live, where I eat, and what I wear.  I learned recently that my wardrobe is not very colorful.  This is true, because black doesn’t stain and blue jeans last longer than khakis, so that is what I bought a couple years or more ago.  And which I still wear.  I am fine with that.  Would a new shirt be nice?  Yes, but so would a car.   Or checking 10 more countries off the ol’ bucket list of “all”.  Which is what would happen if the number went up?  And why I am fine being mediocre.

 

 

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